journal

3.1.26 🌕 saturday

happy new year everyone! although i actually celebrated the end of the year much before this but the calendar numbers have changed and all that. i'm currently working full time again and it is absolutely kicking my arse. i've been trying to read more though which is reflected on the updates...

1.12.25 🌔 monday

yet another waxing gibbous entry! i've been trying to chill after my graduation and before starting some seasonal day job work. i got a new tattoo recently so i can't go to the pool. i miss swimming. and i miss cycling too because my bike's fucked up. i'll try to go and fix it tomorrow.

unsure what i wanna write here. i've been reading a lot of books recently, compared to the amount of books i normally read. or at least have read in the past three years. i looked up how to make some dishes but i'm not sure i want to spend the time to find the ingredients tomorrow. my sleeping schedule has been entirely borgled for the last few weeks.

i did find out about a cool zine i wanna apply for soon so i've been working on updating my portfolio for it. the stakes are pretty high because i really want to get in and there's some history and whatnot. it'd be brilliant to get in! and i hope i will.

additionally, i have some holiday gifts to work on and should get a move on with those very soon, actually. how have you been? what are you reading?

1.11.25 🌔 saturday

i've been rly inactive here mostly because first i was busy with my final training for uni, then i was ill for 2.5 weeks. i'm still ill. i've also been feeling quite burnt out otherwise.

i passed the exam i mentioned in the last post. i've also booked the last ever exam for this course and it will be on monday. we will also have our thesis seminar quite soon. then it's done. in december i will start a 3 week work contract. i'm in quite a desperate need for money so that's good. i considered opening (and advertising) commissions for this reason but i really am too burnt out to manage that.

idk how i will manage work either tbqh but it's only 3 weeks with a handful of holidays so it means better pay and more days off. once i've graduated i will be eligible for sick leaves again and can have some income while i try to recover. i just need enough to cover a few trips to the next town over, rent and student loan instalments. some bill and grocery contributions in our shared house. it's not that much, except for the loan. but i'm managing, more or less.

12.8.25 🌔 tuesday

looks like tuesday is the website day now? at least 2 weeks in a row! today i had my nursing exam and i passed it! i need to redo the maths part because i didn't remember how to calculate one specific type of calculation and since you gotta answer all of them correctly retake it is. but i'm not bummed out about it cuz it's just a wee maths moment next month.

today's website task was adding moon phases to the front page. why? because i don't wanna look them up and i'm not always at home with my wall calendar, the sky gets cloudy, and sometimes i want to be a little more exact on the days. like is it still full moon or is it fully in the waning phase? i also attached my moon phase calendar back on the wall in real life. the heatwave melted my blutack and i had to get some clear packaging tape.

i also noticed an outdated link on the splash page so i updated that. what else... it's the tail end of summer and i'm quite loving it, my favourite time of the year is almost upon us. the lovely thinning of the veil, the new year approaching. bilberries are in season and we've been picking them. i made my first jam in years if ever. what do you like to do in the late summer and early autumn?

5.8.25 🌔 tuesday

today i embarrassed myself by being bad at perception, jumping into conclusions based on my low quality incorrect observation, and confronting someone without double checking. that was not smart of me and i feel bad but i also think it is justified to feel bad if you messed up. and i also think that it's a lesson for me to double check before i get on my high horse about something even if the subject is important. especially if i'm already like huh, this would be so strange of this person to do, i can't believe it... and turns out that yeah, i was wrong, indeed. i apologised but in reality i should have just double checked the first time.

the reason why i'm writing about it is that it sucks to fuck sth up. not only for you but the other person. this person was patient and kind with me, but they did not have to be. they could've just told me to fuck off if they wanted to. i can't make up for it because i already made my blunder but i can reflect on it and be more careful the next time i'm about to message someone about something quite serious. i wish the person all the best. (i told them that too, i'm not just randomly vagueposting about them.)

anyway. the other thing i've done today? drawn an arse. about to upload it soon. the third thing? tried desperately to concentrate in class. but online classes are like a stream going into my brain and out of it through the hole at the back. an entire day of online classes is just hell for my brain. i should've drawn arses the entire day, maybe that would've helped. what have you been up to? what did you learn today?

p.s. if anyone knows how to remove the random - i can see between the two last sketches in my gallery please tell me cuz i'd like to know

2.8.25 🌔 saturday

i've been down with some flavour of a cold so i had to call in sick and sleep... so i did some thesis work and other uni tasks since my brain was fully in the 'no fun allowed but also you've slept enough' mode. and then i had dnd and during that i finally finished this website layout (mostly in order to keep myself from biting my nails).

fun fact: for the gallery page, i had to restructure the code and make it back into divs instead of the funky scaling uhhh... idr its name, whatever, grid? layout that this page is. because the gallery code also uses the same thing and was breaking shit.